Soulsigh : A Sacred Blessingway eBook!

Oh loves, my heart is pounding with a thrum thrum thrum in my chest...

My creative partner, Hillary Rain and I are far-beyond-thrilled to announce that the eBook version of our online course is here!

Soulsigh: A Sacred Blessingway, the eBook

Launching this precious work in a medium that allows more beautiful souls all around the world to receive it has felt so vulnerable and tender, like a birth in and of itself, where we birthed and now are releasing and trusting the journey of our soul-child.  I've been so emotional today, so many tears shed along side a full heart knowing the healing and balm this will be to the sisters that are drawn to it.

I wanted to share an excerpt from the eBook where I write about a visualization/meditation I did years ago.  I was walking along a path and saw from a distance a little girl ahead of me and knew I had to meet with her.  This visualization was during my fertility journey right before we decided to adopt...

I slowly walked towards the little girl on the path who was crouched over drawing in the dirt with a stick. She had brown hair with loose curls covering her eyes. A dirty, white stained dress and navy blue salt-water sandals. There was a vulnerability to her. A shyness. When I was close, standing above her, I could smell musk and maple and it seemed so familiar. Like home. I kneeled down in the dirt, so close that my knees were touching hers. She looked up at me with light brown doe eyes. Her smile was at ease in a way that my presence offered her the safe that she needed. There she was. There was me. 35 years ago.

We meet again. I see her now. And it was as if a deep knowing that I had kept tightly under key, unlocked. All these years of trying to grow life in my womb and it not happening, I was beginning to wonder if I was just not capable of growing life, or more importantly, of mothering. Yet as I sat near the little girl me and held her hand and we held a mirror to each other and truly saw each other, I realized something that was such a healing balm. 

I AM a mother. I’ve always been a mother. A gentle and wild mama to the little girl within me.

I HAVE grown life and look at her, my inner child. She’s so pure and divine. And I see her and love her more than anyone could ever see her and love her. And that is all she truly needs.

You can read this and so much more from me, my partner Rain and the many extraordinary guests (including Laura Mazurek, Mandy Steward, Marissa Moondaughter, Stephanie PerkinsonMara Glatzel, Teresa Robinson!) that contributed to our course.  You can purchase your copy for $29 here.  We kept the cost low because we wanted to reach as many precious souls as we could.  We hope you join us in this sacred sisterhood.


homemade incense*

reading nook

reading nook

I've always felt something like making homemade incense would be way too overwhelming for me.  I admired creations like that from afar, assuming it wasn't simple enough for me because I crave simple these days.

When I woke yesterday morning a few hours before my boys, I noticed the light coming through onto our reading chair was so ethereal and all I wanted to do in that moment was sip coffee and read through something that would infuse life into me for that day.  I looked through a part of our home library in my husband's home office that I haven't delved into for a while.  I found this book that I completely forgot we had: Celebrating the Great Mother: A Handbook of Earth-Honoring Activities for Parents and Children.  This book is so gentle and beautiful and intentional and not at all complicated to read, which is what I am needing not only for me but also to share with my son.  I love reading with him because he craves it, especially spiritual books honoring the earth, moon, sun and sky, which he connects to on a deep level.

I turned to the chapter on Spring and found a few simple recipes for Incense.  One in particular caught my eye.  It was called Safe & Loving Home Incense.

When Cedar woke, he crawled into the chair with me and I read this bit to him and suddenly he filled with so much life and asked if we could make some that day.  So off to our magical little tea shop downtown I went.  This shop's walls are covered in shelves of big and small jars of loose teas and spices and herbs.  Its the yummiest smelling shop with such healing energy.  We always go there for special healing teas for whatever ailment we are experiencing.  The two women working there are such gentle listeners and guides.  I was so geeked out to be making my first incense and she was so excited to gather all the ingredients for me.

I went home with all the goods and created a peaceful environment for Cedar and I to explore and create in the late afternoon.  It was raining outside, so it was the perfect day for this.  I played our Liquid Mind station on Pandora and sat near him and let him make a batch all on his own while reading it to him.

Safe & Loving Home Incense

Cinnamon, sandalwood powder, bay leaf, angelica and marjoram.

The spices were left in their natural granule-type state so we could grind them in our mortar & pestles.  That was the part that Cedar loved the most.  It felt really good for his body too because it wasn't easy and he had to push and twist really hard (especially the Cinnamon granules) to turn them into as much of a powdery form as he could.

What I loved the most about this ritual for me and Cedar was that as we were grinding up our spices, we closed our eyes and visualized our sweet home with a warm and loving glow around it.  In the photo of Cedar below, you can see him closing his eyes and visualizing.  My eyes filled with tears because he truly is able to meditate in this way so clearly and he was so very mindful about it...so very quiet in those moments.

visualizing our home

visualizing our home

In the Incense portion of the Spring chapter, she talked about the energy of the child being infused into the incense and how powerful that is.  And its true. I felt it.  I felt it when we poured the incense on the lit charcoal and watched it burn.  Our home felt enveloped in so much pure love and we sat there watching it burn with so much joy that our hands had created something our home needed, we needed.

There are more involved ways of making incense (cones and sticks with resin, etc.) but this, this felt very attainable to us and within our reach for now and I am so grateful for it.   This whole activity left me feeling such a peace and calm vibration throughout the day.  

So simple, yet so powerful.