The last few days with Cedar have been healing and love soaked. He is feeling better and has decided to put that energy into lots of snuggles and happiness and cracking us up. My mama heart has been cracked wide open these days.
We showed him his birth story book for the first time yesterday. It is filled with mostly photos with captions of the first time we met his birth parents, then the birth and our two week hotel stay post birth...and spending thanksgiving with his birth parents. It was really emotional. He seemed captivated with his birthmom and laid his head on a photo of her to give her love. The next photo was of me feeding him his first bottle in the hospital and he looked over at me and wrapped his arms around me. Both Boho Boy and I got teary. He just seemed so in tune with it all and somehow tapped into knowing I needed that hug. He did it a few times throughout the book...looked over at me and sort of fell onto my chest with his arms wrapped tight. We will show him this book as often as possible. We want him to feel his adoption is a totally natural thing and a sacred part of his journey on this earth. Our adoption consultant has an adopted son much older and growing up, playing house with his friends, she would hear him say "are you adopted like me?" or "this is my baby, he is adopted". This is how I want it to feel for Cedar. Something to celebrate...a gorgeous part of his life where there is no shame but openness to share and excitement to enlighten his friends ideas about how families can be created in so many ways. This is what the book is for and why we will make one each year including photos of him and our birth parent visits.
Wanted to share a few photos we've taken over the last few days.